I just realized that I never posted an update after I was waiting for the official job offer.
A.) I got the job, and 2.) I started last Thursday.
It’s kind of been a whirlwind; I haven’t been used to getting up early in the morning and working all day at a desk job in (what feels like) ages. But, I’m not going to lie – I have really been liking it!
For now, they only want me to work 20 hours per week, but they keep talking about the job going full time “soon.” All I know is, I worked last Thursday and Friday, and this Monday – Wednesday, and it feels pretty damn full time to me. I’m not just working a couple of hours per day, I’m working 8 (or damn near) hours when I go in, and I can see how this will easily become full time. The accounting lady is swamped, and it’s just going to get crazier when the busy (summer) season starts. So, I anticipate working a full week as soon as she can get me trained up.
In the mean time, when I hired on, I told them that I had a previous commitment scheduled for this Thursday and Friday, and since I’m part time and can technically set my own hours, they had no problem giving me those days off. Besides, I already put in my 20 hours for this week, so I don’t feel guilty at all. My plan is to work full days Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, and then give myself a 4 day weekend every week…. at least until they make me full time.
What’s been interesting to me is that my anxiety isn’t in extreme overdrive when I go to work in the morning. When I was working at the salon, I could barely sleep the night before because my anxiety was through the roof, and I could never figure out what was triggering it. After all, it wasn’t a difficult job, and I really liked my coworkers. But, being back at a desk job, in an Accounting department, made me realize that my anxiety came from not knowing what to expect (in a way).
See, I worked in an Accounting department for so long, it’s basically old hat. The systems might all be different, but the basics are the same – entering invoices, paying bills, recording payments, reconciling credit cards …. it’s like second nature to me. Frankly, that’s been giving me a lot of comfort. Yes, the job is new and the people are new and the industry is different, but the actual WORK is familiar and comforting. I know how to do these things.
At the salon, it was high energy, stand-all-day, dealing with customers and beauty products – none of which was familiar to me. I was used to being in the back of the house and crunching numbers and running reports. As much as I enjoyed talking to people and being at the salon, the anxiety I felt was because it just wasn’t the right job for me. Sure, I could have made it work (and I did, while I was there), but it wasn’t a good fit. And now I know.
So, all this time of unemployment to figure out what I wanted to do when I grow up has kind of been a bust because apparently what I want to do is Accounting. Or, maybe it’s because that’s what I know and am good at, but that’s not my calling. Or, maybe it is. I truly don’t know. What I do know is that this job feels comfortable and doable, and my anxiety isn’t totally out of control anymore. Having a routine in a familiar environment seems to be working for me.
I feel like I really lucked out.
Now, next week, I have to take a “test” to get my official credentials. I’m not exactly sure what’s on this “test,” I just know I have to bring multiple forms of ID, take a class, and pass a test. Otherwise, I won’t be able to work there any longer because technically I don’t have official clearance. I can’t be in the building without someone with a badge, so until I can take the class/test, it’s kind of like I’m on probation. I’m a little nervous, but my supervisor seems to think it won’t be a big deal (and she won’t give me any details about it – I’m not sure if it’s because she can’t, or because she doesn’t understand what I’m asking). I really hope it goes well because I don’t want to lose this job…